3:49 AM — So, NoFood/NoFluids is over. Now what?
By the way, I discovered some of these concoctions I made were kinda undrinkable. Mixing a lime cube with lemon-syrup? Lime cubes are so powerfully sour, putting them in anything is kinda dangerous.
But, usually when you create something like that, you can just add some sparkling water, and that’ll take care of it. Or maybe cutting it with apple juice will help (since apple juice tends to go with just about anything). I don’t think you want to cut it with grape juice unless you’re gonna be adding sparkling water or 7-Up or something. We don’t have those ingredients, though (I didn’t think to get apple juice, and I already used up the sparkling water on the cherry lemonade yesterday). I added some tap water, but that’s not the same as sparkling water. So I’m kinda behind the eight-ball, when it comes to trying to make the concoction in front of me drinkable.
So, what am I gonna do about my wife? Just ignore her, I guess. That’s a problem that will go away by itself, one way or the other, if left alone long enough.
What about my programming project? I lost all my notes in the hard drive theft. So I gotta go through old chats and try to remember what was going on. I’m also gonna need a new desktop computer, so I can get Ubuntu running again.
I need to try to save some Google caches that might have some of my notes. Maybe then I can remember what I was working on. If not, I guess I gotta figure something else out from scratch. Maybe looking at some issues in the issue tracker will also jog my memory.
I need to clean the kitchen too, at some point. I’ve been taking more sips of that concoction — yeah, maybe I made the right move yesterday in throwing out that other concoction, because no matter how slowly you try to drink this, it’s painful. I’m gonna have to throw this out too, I guess, unless I’m planning on getting more Perrier or some 7-Up or apple juice or something. See, if I made this stuff often, I’d have those items around as a staple.
4:04 AM — Yeah, I cut up part of an apple and threw that in there and blended it. No good. The concoction can’t be salvaged. It went in the trash.
So, now what? Well, like I said, I gotta look for my notes and try to figure out what my last line of thinking was. Was I still working on anything involving pywikibot? I can’t remember. I lost all my test code for pywikibot, too, I think.
What would’ve been the logical thing for me to do, if I weren’t planning on pursuing that pywikibot path? I can’t remember. I do remember I was trying to set up MediaWiki with that customized code. And I remember I had succeeded in getting MediaWiki to put the correct stuff into the custom fields. So maybe I was still working with pywikibot. Okay. If so, I can just retrace those steps, and maybe if nothing else, it’ll jog my memory and my earlier thinking will come back to me.
My voice/throat is still kinda sore from not drinking any fluids for a week, and my body is still kinda delicate in what I can handle eating or drinking. Wish I had some apple juice or something else less hardcore than grape juice. Man, that sparkling water is addictive — I feel like I could add that to anything.
It’s hard to imagine that I would do this NoFood/NoFluids thing again any time soon — it seems like it would be better to just LDAR until my mom’s death, if that’s what had to happen. Then I could always rope at that point. (Not literally rope, but you know what I mean.)
I think what I’d been planning on doing was translating sdbot into python. Okay. That shouldn’t be too hard. It would help to have dual monitors. (Fuck triple monitors; I found that was kinda overrated.)
Hmm, what else? That’s about it, I guess. Ima look for some canned fruit now, I guess.
4:19 AM — Man, I just tried to eat some pineapple chunks out of the can and even those are too intense. I just gotta take it really easy right now. I hope I didn’t do permanent damage to my body. I feel like I burned my tongue, the back of my throat, etc.
I was just talking to my mom earlier about how people are in a world of pain due to how dysfunctional relations between the sexes have become. I guess she doesn’t see the situation as being so dire, despite the statistics I mentioned. She kinda has the same talking points she keeps returning to. E.g., my dad said he was gonna make a bunch of money, but he didn’t. Well, what can I say. He kinda failed in a lot of his male roles, or didn’t step up to the plate.
I’m not sure which came first — whether his failure in his male roles led to her taking on a more masculine role, or if her refusing to submit and be feminine (basically the same thing) in certain ways emasculated and demoralized him to the point he wasn’t able or willing to perform his male functions properly. It just occurred to me that when she has said that she “didn’t want to be dominated” that basically means she didn’t want to be feminine. Or it means she couldn’t be feminine because there wasn’t a competent and masculine man around to lead her; she needed a man she could look up to, whose leadership she could respect.
I was just talking to a certain admin on a certain incel board. I get the sense that he feels like he’s on stage when he’s communicating by PM. Maybe he figures anything could be leaked. It’s kinda like working in one of those corporate open offices where there are no cubicle walls, so anything you say, everyone is gonna potentially overhear (if they don’t have headphones in).
It seems to me that a lime cube is like an atom bomb in the amount of devastation it’s gonna cause to your palate, whatever you put it in, unless you heavily balance it with some other element(s) that are suitable for that purpose. I mean, if you’re just gonna make limeade, okay, but right now I think limeade might kick my ass anyway, if I can’t even handle canned pineapple chunks.
6:55 AM — It turns out, one reason why stuff I mixed grape juice with became undrinkable, is that the grape juice is starting to turn. It’s not even all that drinkable by itself. So the results of my experiments with grape juice concoctions may not have a lot of validity.
Fun fact: unplugging laptop headphones doesn’t shut it up, like it would with a desktop PC that doesn’t have built-in speakers.
Well anyway, at least I got rid of those who can’t handle suicidal ideation. They must not be able to relate, or something.
I hope I haven’t damaged my skin through dehydration. If I did, oh well. No wonder politics ages people so much.
So this site is basically more like a journal than a blog, I guess. I could, I suppose, split off the journal stuff into a separate blog. But then maybe this blog would be mostly empty.
1:22pm — So anyway, over the past seven days, I did at least answer the question of, will I accept living in a post-Nathania world? I guess that’s what I’ll be doing, because Nathania is gone, and I’m still here. I didn’t check out. I accepted half a loaf as better than nothing.
2:39pm — So I wonder, how am I gonna cope with stressful situations if I don’t have suicide as a solution to fall back on? Hmm.
So anyway, we still have quite a lot of lemon syrup, lime syrup, etc. Not sure what I’m gonna do with all that, cuz it’s pretty hard on the stomach. We just need to get some sparkling water to dilute it with, I guess.
9:35pm — So, I’m just gonna install XAMPP, I guess, and do my coding on this Windows machine, even though Windows sucks. I’ve got this underpowered laptop with a single monitor, but I’m just gonna make the best of it. I’ve been in this situation before, and I did okay.
10:00pm — I gotta get away from this incel movement stuff, before it destroys me. I’m gonna have to shift focus to Inclupedia. I just feel that what happened recently was pretty unacceptable, and I can’t deal with that again.
I hate running for office because it’s like being in prison; you’re waiting for this arbitrary date when that shit will finally be over. I’ll be glad when I can be out of the public spotlight (at least for that stuff). I did my duty; now it’s time to do some productive work. But I guess I’ll remain celibate, or something, for the foreseeable future. What a fucked-up time we live in.
I gotta restart the computer now, so that my new UAC settings will take effect. I feel kinda melancholy, and my mom seems in a strange mood as well (not sure why).
11:14pm — So I got XAMPP and Komodo Edit working. phpMyAdmin is working. Now I gotta figure out how I’ll be installing MediaWiki. I’ll leave that for tomorrow.
I suppose once I get MediaWiki installed, then I can start the new Nathania, v3.0. Well, now I embark on a new era, and hope that somehow providential forces are moving events in a suitable direction that will one day guide me into my daughter’s pussy.
This post, by the way, will probably be moved to the new Nathania.